No secret that my Mind is a bully. She is truly getting on the rest of “our” nerves. Her obsession with progress - the competitive, observable, externally measured kind - is depressing and yet relentless. I’m trying hard to bench her.
In working through an emotionally very dense week of good, hard, rainy, and all the little adversities that can be added on in between, I’m trying to talk to myself in encouraging ways, rather than letting my Mind go on and on with her critiques and rants and ridiculous comparisons.
Back to the round pen, which is feeling like a classroom, therapy couch, and kitchen table, all at once. Tundra is happy to be back to “school,” and I’m happy to have some sunshine (apologies to all of you who are dealing with too much of the warm stuff - we are squarely in the jet stream and it’s non-stop wind and rain and thunder and barely summer temperatures). My mic is working (my new one), and my phone is charged, and I have a little bit of emotional energy, and there you go. This is a lovely chance to work on shifting my inner team’s focus to a more balanced set of goals - based on my Body’s realities (and Tundra’s), as well as the sheer volume of new information and learning my Heart is struggling to integrate into an already full emotional “cup.”
This is a longish video, but for me it was very grounding and affirming. I needed this time with my horse, and I think I feel better after trying to say out loud to you, and with my actions to her, all while staying emotionally as present as I possibly could, some reframing messages as to What Is Happening. Always tricky to describe. Happy Wednesday to you all, and join me when you have a minute (or 21 in this case!). Working on depth, over distance and also supporting discovery, before either.
